Christmas around the Corner

With Christmas so close, I'm now looking back on the past year and thinking of everything that's happened. I think I've had a more eventful year than ever before. I was kicked out of an apartment, lied about by my former landlord, found the love of my life, AND moved across the country.

Phew... even just typing all that out made me lose my breath!! It's amazing how much can change... I was actually really depressed a few months ago, and now I'm happier than I've ever been before! The years can only get better. I'm looking forward to ringing in the new year with everyone here (Jody, Kayla, Jabari, Jacob and Randy) and of course with Tyler, even though his new year will come six hours before mine.

I'm loving every moment of life, and I can't wait for it to go on. Tyler and I have been discussing it, and we've determined that if we both save up this year, and work for it, I'll be able to go there, and spend the Holidays with him next year.. Originally he had said he wanted to come here... but he's had a um... history, and he's worried about being sent away by the USA customs, because he's read up on it, and neither of us know if he'd actually be allowed into the country, so we changed it around. I'm SO excited!!!

I've always known, but I'm learning more and more that every moment of life is precious and beautiful, even if it doesn't seem so at the time. Once you get out of the rough spots, you can look back and see what beautiful things have formed from something not so beautiful.

Example: I was in a horrible situation in Salt Lake.. I didn't really have anywhere to go, I mean I had people willing to help, but no one that really could, and I understand that, I just really didn't have anywhere to go, and I was coping with being single, I mean I wasn't LOOKING for someone to share my life with... and almost all at once I found the one person who was meant for me, and I moved here to Mississippi to stay with a family that I've always loved spending time with... I just can't seem to get over how it all happened.

I think I'll always have down moments, but I know for a fact that I am extremely lucky to have my life start falling together from the shambles it was in at such a young age as 23.

Oh and what else? It was the most bizarre thing.. a few days ago I felt ill, like I was coming down with a bug or something. I was in bed all day, my head felt foggy, my throat hurt... and none of it made any sense. Maybe I was getting sick, but I didn't think so. Then Tyler sent me a text message saying he felt horrible and had been in bed all day with a cold, then it clicked! I was feeling it with him... we've done that before, it's so bizarre but I wouldn't trade it for anything.

Jabari, Kayla's son will turn one year old on Wednesday, and we've got a cake for him and everything. I was thinking the other day about when he gets older, people will probably often try to give him one gift and say "Oh, your birthday is the day before Christmas, so I thought I'd just get one gift and call it done..." maybe he'll be fine with that when he's an adult, but for a kid? That's gotta be just terrible... plus he doesn't get to space out his birthday from Christmas... hahaha I'm sure he'll cope.

I'm also looking forward to spending Christmas here with these people, it's going to be so much fun!!!

Here's wishing all of my lovely followers a very Merry Christmas, and an extremely wonderfully Happy New Year!!!

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Chaos!!

Yeah so it's been a while since my last update! Sorry!!! Anywho... Our Thanksgiving was great, it was my aunt Jody's birthday so we celebrated that on the same day. There's been a lot of chaos here, but what kind boring life would there be without a good amount of chaos? A very boring one.. hahaha.

I'm getting set up with a Rheumatologist here in Mississippi, and I went to see an Ear Nose and Throat specialist today, but there was a problem with my insurance so I couldn't finish. That was fun... NOT! Although, they did vacuum the ear wax out of my left ear with a little vacuum made especially for ears... that felt so weird, and my ears are so overly ticklish... rather uncomfortable. Not to mention, the insurance person at that clinic was very rude to me, she was treating me like I was trying to cheat them or something. I was highly offended... I don't really want to go back, the doctor I saw even agreed that there was no real point in me going back because he couldn't see any problems with my ears, nose or throat.

Right now I'm sitting in the living room with my cousin Kayla, and she's playing music videos on the tv for her son Jabari so he'll settle down and go to sleep. He's in love with Brandy... we have the video to her new song Departed, and he stares at it. We keep saying that Brandy is my cousin's future daughter-in-law. It's fun.

It snowed here last Thursday. It never snows here in December... they all say I brought it because I came here from Utah. Yeah... apparently it's my fault... I even told Tyler it was snowing and his words were "Oh... well done!" hahaha. He's so funny. We got to rush around in the snow, wich was only about an inch, if that, and everyone here was freaking out because it was SNOW so all the businesses were closed, even my cousin Jacob who is autistic had to have his doctor appointment cancelled because the clinic was closed, and he had to go 24 hours without one of his most important medications... that was especially FUN!

I found out that the people here in the south are usually really nice, until it starts snowing and getting cold. I found that out on Thursday, because I went into a mail-it shop to send Tyler his Christmas present, and the lady in there, as soon as I opened the door and went to go inside, she said "We're CLOSED!!!" very rude-like... so we went to the post office, and I picked up a customs form, because it's being shipped overseas, and I asked the lady there if I had to write what was inside in detail because I knew it would be stuck on the outside of the box and I wanted to try and let it be a surprise for him. The woman was very rude to me she said "There's NO Surprises!!!" so I said "Okay so it's gonna stay on ther--" so she cut me off again an said "I said NO SURPRISES!!" so I blinked a few times and just went on to ask "So it'll get there by Christmas, right?" and all she said to that was "Yes! 10 Days!!!" so I just stood there in shock that she was being so unbelievebly rude, and said "All right, I just asked because the website said today was the last day for the United Kingdo--" and again, she cut me off, "10 DAYS!!!!"

Amazing really... me and Kayla and Jody have taken to saying "10 DAYS!!!" as a kind of inside joke.... I simply told Tyler not to look at the green thing when he gets his "Christmas Card"... because he still has no idea I'm sending more than a Card... he seemed confused, but agreed to avoid looking at the green thing. He's so sweet I know he'll actually try really hard to not look at it... aww...

Anyway... now that I've let that all out I suppose I'll let you people get back to your lives... HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!! Much love to you all!!!

Thankful Thanksgiving

Well this past week it was Thanksgiving... and for once I've felt like I've had alot more to be thankful for than I ever have... that makes me sound ungrateful for what I've had in the past, and that isn't necessarily what I mean by that.

What's different, is that this year, I feel like I'm actually living my life, because I'm surrounded by people I love, people who don't drain the life out of me.

We didn't have our Thanksgiving dinner on the actual day, because my aunt Jody had to work, and she was off Saturday, plus Saturday was her birthday, so we combined the two. It was a pretty good day... Kayla and I put together a surprise gift bag for her (she hadn't been expecting a gift) and the look on her face was worth it. It felt so good to hand it to her, and see how happy she was. She deserves so much more, she does so much for all of us.

And now (come on, don't tell me you weren't expecting this part) I must say that I am most certainly extremely thankful for Tyler... he and I have had a few rough days this past week, but I've never met anyone more worth it, and I doubt I ever could. I recieved a letter from him in the mail on Friday, and just holding it in my hands made me feel so many things... so I told him he'd better hurry up and get himself over here so I can feel how much better it'll feel to have my arms around him, rather than a letter he wrote (wow, how sappy am I? hahahaha)

Anywho... I have much to be thankful for, and of courst not least at all, those of you who read this blog. Oh yes, and Today is my nephew Jonathan's birthday! He's 9 years old, I can't believe it! I remember the day he was born... and before I know it he's gonna be 25 and I'm going to be in culture shock. Then tomorrow is his little brother Sam's birthday... what is going on??? This isn't fair! Why are these kids growing up so fast!!! Also, my cousin Kayla's son Jabari's birthday is on December 24th... he'll be a year old.. AHH make the children stop aging! I can't keep up!


Anyway... signing off! <3

Hurricane Katrina "aftermath" still isn't over...

Yesterday, Jody, Kayla, Jacob, Jabari and I all decided to randomly take a quicky road trip down to the coast. We saw the Gulf of Mexico... it was beautiful, but I also saw alot of the damage that Hurricane Katrina did down there... even though it's been cleaned up quite a bit, I could see places where the houses had been torn right up... like a set of stairs up to a porch, and nothing more. It was so heartbreaking to look at. So many people lost their homes. It made me so grateful for what I have.

I know there's been a lot of people, even a few people I know personally who have actually said "Ugh I'm so sick of hearing about Hurricane Katrina, it was years ago!!!" and I never agreed really, but now that I'm actually down here in this area, and I've seen all the damage she really did, I disagree with that even more. I knew that the hurricane had affected my family down here, so I knew that it wasn't really over, I don't think it ever will be over. So many people's lives were completely changed, and so many people's lives were lost.

I am so happy to have what I have, and I feel confident that I don't take any of it for granted. I know that I am lucky for everything I have, and all the loved ones I have especially.

Jody told me that with Katrina, the storm surge, which is the wave that comes off the ocean after a hurricane, usually comes in about two hours or so after the actual storm, so people have time to prepare for it. But with Katrina, it came right with the storm, so no one was prepared, and that's why so many people died. I just kept looking out at the Gulf, and thinking how terrible it would be to see a huge wave coming, and being so close to it, and not being able to do anything about it. It would be so terrifying.

I feel like I've come quite a ways in the last couple of months, thanks to family, and of course Tyler... without him I wouldn't have had the courage to come out here, and without my family here I wouldn't have had the opportunity. No one should ever take what they have for granted... and I know a few people that do, and it sickens me... it always did, but yesterday made me appreciate everything so much more.

I love you all!

P.S. I'm also a bit more emotional today because it's Tyler's birthday and he's off spending the day in Camden (it's a little town on the outskirts of London) so I'm missing him =[ but I do hope he's having a good time.

Anywho.. Toodleoo!

Good Feeeeeelins!

Today was a pretty good day...

I woke up and had some cereal, then got online to do some of my studies (I'm studying to be a Medical Transcriptionist) and of course spent most of the day talking to Tyler *blush* he makes me feel so happyyyy.... He told me a few things he's never been able to tell me before... (oddly enough we're so in tune with each others emotions... I could tell something's been up the last few days) he said he felt so much better after he told me, which made me happy.... Anywho... as I said you'd be hearing plenty about him hahaha.

Kayla and I then went to run some errands with Jacob and Jabari... we took a disc to my uncle Randy, then went to the post office, and theeen to get some snacks and THEN to the dollar store... and finally back to the house.

I got something in the mail that I'm not gonna post on here because it's rather embarassing... but it really scared me... alot, (no, I don't have an STD... sickooos lol) but I was feeling rather sick... and thanks to Jody and Tyler I feel much better now... though still a little worried.

Anywho... we're going to have a 'cookout' for dinner tonight... things just seem to be fun here, as Jacob is watching Fantasia on his little tv, Jabari is wondering around, and Kayla and I are watching King of the Hill... Jody's working in her room, and Randy is off at work. It's been a rather calm day... but I really am sooo glad that I have Tyler and he was able to make me feel so much better, and Jody, of course... I'm also so happy that I was able to help him feel so much better today... Whyyyy's England gotta be so far away!??!

Signing off :)

What a dayyy

Okay so I woke up today in paaiin because my teeth have been bothering me and I can't figure out why... it feels like pressure on my back molars, and it's rather annoying. Luckily I got to spend most of the day talking to Tyler, who I mentioned in the previous post haha... but as cheesy as it sounds he always makes me feel better.

So I woke up and stayed in bed for a while because I was in pain, and then Jody, Kayla, Jacob, Jabari and I climbed into the truck and we went to Forrest General Hospital (it's the hospital my aunt Jody works for, with her medical transcripting) so we could get lunch from the cafeteria... because we were hungry and didnt want ramen noodles, and Jody can use her badge at the cashier and get the employee discounted price of the meals deducted from her pay check.

Then we got back, and I grounded my kitty Ebony from leaving my room for the next two days because she attacked Cici, a cat that already lived here, when I've been telling her that this was Cici's house first and she needs to respect that. She's smart enough to know what she's being punished for.

So I was laying in bed, and the sweetest thing happened. There's a little pot of fake yellow tulips here that is kept by the fireplace. So I was laying in bed, and out of nowhere, my cousin Jacob (who is autistic) came into my room carrying the tulips, he walked over and handed them to me, and left again. I thought it was rather sweet so I got onto my laptop and sent an IM to my aunt Jody, from her computer in her bedroom. I told her he did that, and she told me that he had asked where I was, so she told him I was in bed because I wasn't feeling good, so I guess he got the idea to bring me the flowers! Then a little while later, he brought me what looked like a lid to a whinnie the pooh cookie jar... bit more interesting than the flowers, but still sweet...

A while later, we all piled back into the truck to go and get some snacks, because we're random like that. When we got back from that, I was sitting on the sofa with Kayla for a while, watching tv... and then I spent like over an hour on the phone with Tyler... you have to understand that he lives in England, so I can't call him every day... so when I can hear his voice it's a real treat. I can hardly wait for his birthday (November 21st) because I promised him I'd call again then... it had better come soon... I really don't want to wait that long to hear him again but I don't have very much time left on my phone card.

Now we've just had homemade pizza (which was delicious) for supper, and I'm sitting here on the sofa with Kayla.. watching tv again. The days here in Mississippi are never dull, and I'm loving every moment =]

First Post

So I got told by a few people to start up a blog on blogger, so here I am.

I just recently moved out to Hattiesburg, Mississippi to stay with some family I have out here, I am originally from Salt Lake City, Utah. I've recently turned 23, back on October 22nd.

My life has been grand down here so far, I've gotten rather close to my cousin Kayla and her son Jabari, and my aunt Jody. Things have been looking up... especially since I've found and gotten close with Tyler... he's what seems to be my other half, but I wont bore you with talk of him, believe me... you'll hear plenty.

Anywho, I'll leave it at this for tonight, and post more another day. Everyone take care :)