Here I am again...

So it's been a long time since I blogged last... I wonder if anyone's noticed. Either way is fine with me.

So much has happened. I thought 2008 was an eventful year, but 2009 surpassed it, and it isn't even over yet... So what happened this year? Well, no year will ever be better than last year, because that's the year I met my Soulmate. He's there in the picture with me... yeah, Tyler flew over from England to visit me in September... but before that..

In May, I tried to fly to England to see HIM, and I was denied entry to the country, and deported... now after everything that happened with my aunt Jody, I wasn't about to go back to her house, and be told there were reasons I didn't get into England, that Tyler was bad news anyway and the universe was trying to protect me from him. I didn't wanna hear any of it.

So when I got to Washington DC, which was where I landed in America after I was forced to leave London, I called my mother, and she got me a ticket to Salt Lake City from there.

Once I got back to Salt Lake, I got my old job at the Megaplex back, and things were going alright, then I had to move back into my mother's apartment, and I've noticed, I get along with her so much better when I don't have to live with her, so things started going downhill again, but I knew things couldn't ever get as bad as they had previously been because I had Tyler in my life...

In July, the Harry Potter movie opened, and work was hectic. I had been having stomach pains for about 2 weeks and they were just getting worse, and I knew the Harry Potter weekend was going to be extremely busy and I didn't want to miss any work because I knew they needed me, so on Friday morning I went to my boss and asked if there was any way I could call and see if my doctor had an opening that afternoon and go to it so I could see what was wrong so I could be taking care of it and working through the weekend.

She got upset, but allowed it, so I went into the break room and called and they told me my doctor was out of the office that day, but they'd have the doctor on call call me back when he got a chance, so I told her that, and she told me to go clock out and watch a movie until they called back. This didn't really surprise me, as she's let people do this before. So I did, and got a call saying I couldn't get an appointment until Monday, and he told me to take the weekend off if I could and rest. I knew I couldn't because she really needed everyone there, so I just went and talked to her, asked if there was any way I could have the rest of Friday off and I'd work Saturday and Sunday, the busier days, and if not, I'd work the rest of Friday... I just thought I'd ask, and I would bring in a doctor's note after I saw him on Monday. He even said he'd give me one while I talked to him on the phone.

She got really upset and stressed out and said no, so I told her okay, I'd work the rest of Friday, and went back to work. That was that. Then about 20 minutes later she called me back to her office and I went in there and she told me "Thanks but no thanks. You can bring your shirt in tomorrow, and pick up your final check." I couldn't believe it. I actually got fired for being ill. After seeing my doctor on Monday, I found out the stomach pains were caused by a bleeding ulcer I'd gotten from taking ibuprofen, because the job was so physically demanding I was taking more of it than I usually do so I could keep going to work... So... I was jobless again.

I was trying to grin and bare it, and look for work, and I was doing alright, then things turned out with my cousin Kayla, her boyfriend (at the time) Lemanuel (nickname Skip, for some stupid reason), and her son Jabari all flying out to Salt Lake from Hattiesburg, and bringing my kitty Ebony with them.

They all stayed with me and Nancy for a while, and then Nancy's bishop told her she needed to get them out of there, so she did, and they went to my aunt Bonnie's house. Made me sad that she invited them out, then got rid of them as soon as someone told her to.. I'll go on about my feelings toward the church elsewhere... anyway...

A couple weeks after that, Tyler was with me. I'll never forget the moment I saw him in the airport when I picked him up. It was amazing, and I wouldn't trade it for the world. There were no words, I just saw him, and walked over to him, and we just stood there hugging for what seemed like at least 5 minutes, neither of us saying a word. It was perfect.

I did stay with him in the hotel, which seems wrong to a lot of people, but he and I don't have a sexual relationship, and that's what so many people don't understand. Our relationship is strictly emotional. One of my sisters tried to tell me "Yeah, you say that now, but it'll change." It's not going to, people can believe what they want.

I took him all over Salt Lake City, and we had an amazing couple of weeks. He saw mountains for the very first time in his life, and he took so many pictures of them, it was like watching a kid have his first Christmas haha. The last night we were together, our rings were finally finished at the jewelery store (they had to be sized), so we went to pick them up, and became officially engaged. (Yeah, he has an engagement ring too).

So after he flew back the next day, I knew I couldn't handle being around my mother that day, I was emotional enough (those of you who know her, know exactly what I mean) so I went to Bonnie's to hang out with Kayla. Now, while she and Lemanuel were staying with me and Nancy, I noticed I had to coach them through their relationship a lot, and I kept saying "I hope you two don't kill each other while I'm with Tyler"... so yeah, when I got there, I found that their relationship had been falling to shambles.

He kept lying to her, and hurting her, and having REALLY strange ways of showing he 'cared' about her. I spent the night there, and Nancy called the next day saying I'd better just stay there, because she was moving and I couldn't go with her. So I felt kind of homeless, except for the home Tyler is setting up for us in England... we decided that it'll actually save us money to live there in England for a few years, because he gets free rent, just has to pay utilities, and we can both work and save for a house in Seattle.

But that's a home I can't get to until we're married, which will take a long time to save up for, once I find a job anyway...

So... I was stuck at Bonnie's, and if you know Bonnie, she's not the most pleasant person... I mostly stayed downstairs. But Kayla talked to her mom, Jody, and Jody agreed to fly us back out there on October 14th. It was the tail end of September, so we'd have to figure out what to do until then, because Bonnie was telling Kayla she could only keep staying with her if she and Lemanuel got married. With how he'd been treating her she wasn't sure she wanted to marry him anymore and I didn't blame her. I didn't think it was right of Bonnie to try and force her into it.

Lemanuel just got worse and worse, then we found out our aunt Bambie would allow us to stay in her house until we left for Mississippi, so we left for Bambie's one day while Lemanuel was out with Bonnie's husband Blair. We just packed up and went.

We weren't even at Bambie's house for a day when we realized staying there wasn't going to be easy. There was no food (to this day we have no idea if Bambie even eats), so we were buying our own food, which was fine, then we found out Bambie was going to the grand canyon with her husband, his son, and leaving us in the house alone with these crazy people that were staying with her, and her alzheimers patient father in law.

I hate to complain, because I know it's a lot for someone to let you stay in their house for free. I appreciate it. But why did we keep ending up with the craziest of the crazies? Again, Jody came through, she got us a hotel room until the 14th. All through this, Lemanuel was trying to get back to Kayla, she told him if he really cared about her he'd let her have some space, but he got a bus ticket (That Bonnie and Blair paid for...) back to Hattiesburg because, as he said, he needed to be there for his family (Kayla and Jabari). By that time she was completely through with him, and she'd told him over and over that it was over between them, and if he wanted to be back in Mississippi too, then fine, just leave her alone.

Wow, my hands hurt from typing.... So yeah, on the 13th, I found out Tyler's mother was in the hospital, she'd strangled herself with a cord and stopped breathing... and on the 14th I had to fly back here worrying about him and his mom and hoping everything would be okay.

We got back here and things just got worse for Tyler's mother, she died a couple days later. Was horrible.

My birthday was the 22nd, and Tyler sent me a beautiful necklace with a pendant that means "soulmate" (he bought himself one exactly like it), and he sent me an artifical rose, because he knows I love roses and like our love, he said, it will never die. He also sent me a glass painting he did for me, and Stardust on dvd, because we watched it together and I told him I wanted it.. also he sent a box of English chocolates... and he's ruined me for American chocolate..

So I've been trying to help him through losing his mother, he keeps asking when the pain starts fading, so I keep trying to think back to losing my dad and I just can't remember... I also didn't have him when I lost my dad... so it's just so hard to say. I wish I could just BE there, but immigration has to be completely stupid...

Things have been such a roller coaster this year... the years just keep coming and going... I want to pause time and fix everything for everybody but I can't, and I don't know what to do..

Who knows what 2010 will have in store... all I know is it involves Aliens... I can't wait.